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And then the sun came out

Perhaps I should have been clearer in my last post that when I refered to “normal”, what I really meant was “normal for me”. Perish the thought that I, or anyone for that matter, should ever be called “normal” as a term of praise.

I’ve always loved the fact that both the following phrases have such a ring of truth to them:

Everyone seems normal, until you get to know them
Everyone seems weird, until you get to know them

Anyway, maybe the meds have finally kicked in, or maybe it’s just a brief moment of respite, but I’ve noticed a distinct change in the past 24 hours, like I’m no longer wading through treacle.

Do you ever go out to a wood or parkland and take a deep breath, filling your lungs, and think “I’d forgotten just how wonderful this smells.”?

It’s a bit like that - remembering what it feels like not to be weighed down and worrying when the next depressive bout will suddenly pounce, and realising you’d forgotten you could feel that way.

Maybe it will be gone again tomorrow, or maybe it will stick around for a while. But for the moment I’m going to enjoy breathing it in.

P.S. Is anyone else having problems with Blogger giving them posting instructions in German (other than German readers, that is)?


Archie said...

Great! Enjoy the fresh air!

P.S. Nein, alles ist gut.

Unknown said...

That is good news!

I'm getting the German instructions too - it's even on profiles.

Unknown said...

Most Excellent

Cycles Goff said...

Happy for you, Kim.

Like The Prodigy say 'Smack my...'.

No, hang on, 'Breathe, baby'.
Yup, that's the one.

Dr Maroon said...

Harry Dean Stanton in "Repo Man"

'normal people; I hate them'

Tom said...

So when should I be expecting my flower?

The Birdwatcher said...

I'm with you on the fresh air I get the same feeling in the Goyt, all the worries get lost in the space and wildness of it all.

Getting German instructions too.

Anonymous said...

Keep on breathing like that, Kim!

But beware: German instructions in your blogging software are just the first steps of a secret evil masterplan... next thing you'll see is people starting to hand your exchange in Euro currency... and then... oh my god!

Just kidding,

Andreas from Germany
(who doesn't even use Blogger ;-) )

Mary Witzl said...

Love that fresh air. In Japanese, you can say that air tastes good (oishii kuuki). It does, in a way.

If you start feeling bad again, just tell yourself this: you could be in Downtown Bakersfield instead of Scotland. That's a thought that usually cheers me up.

Anonymous said...

normal for me is not normal for you . . . thank god! normal for you is not normal for me . . . thank god!

i'm glad you're finding some sort of sense of homeostasis (sp?).

how was your class?

Anonymous said...

I love the days when I, too, can just breathe, and be at peace for a while.

Kim Ayres said...

Thanks everyone

Andreas - welcome to my ramblings :)

Mary Witzl said...

I've noticed the German instructions too. And I figured it was just because of my name.

What is really odd is that sometimes they are in Dutch as well. Or is that just me...?

savannah said...


jotcr2 said...

That sounds promising.

Stella said...

aaw, I love those moments Kim, hugs

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