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5 years

It's the 5th anniversary today.

Surprisingly I didn't remember until later in the day, which is a good thing I guess. It means I have probably moved on another step.

When I did remember though, the grief came flooding back.

I don't think the feelings are ever less intense, only that they occur less frequently.


Anonymous said...


I know that feeling. Just over 3 years ago was 6 years for my dad. The day before that his mother passed. May other grandmother also passed in January. I HATE January.

It never gets better, but it does get easier (which by no means that it is easy...just easiER)


Anonymous said...

Ack!! Just over 3 weeks ago, not 3 years ago.
I hate February too! lol


Carole said...

Sorry Kim

I had to read back posts to find out what kind of grief you were experiencing. I've lost neither parent yet, but it must feel a little akin to missing a stomach. You honor your mom with your grief.

Brave Astronaut said...

On February 26, it will be two years since my mother left this world for the next.

She was so sick at the end, Kim, it was hard to see her like that. We (my siblings, and my father) were all there to say goodbye a week before she passed.

I am so happy that she got to meet my older son and sad that she will not be able to meet my second. But she is always with me.

We are who we are because of our mothers, aren't we? I'm thinking about you today.

Tom said...

Sorry Kim. I'd invite you to a pot luck if you lived closer.

Thinking of you.

PI said...

Loved ones are never completely gone, as long as there is still someone alive who loves them. My Mum and Dad are with me all the time.

Sam, Problemchildbride said...

I miss my granny terribly who died last year. She was in many ways more of a mother to me than a granny, and you're right, sometimes the feeling of loss just creeps up and takes you by surprise.

Take heart in knowing that she must have known how loved she was. She's influenced you and the person you've become and you, in your turn, influence your own kids. Nothing's for nothing with people and love. It continues on and is beautiful.


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Archivalist said...

Amen, Sam, amen.

Whatever small consolation it may be to you, take some solace in the thoughts and wished of the community you've built around you here.

Freakazojd said...

I know this kind of pain.
Thinking of you.

redhead83402 said...

ahh Kim ((hugs)) ~ have you thought about the after-life? What sort of God would allow us to be together as families here on earth but not allow it once we've passed on? I don't know what your beliefs are, & I certainly don't want to shove my own onto you ~ I guess it's just so calming to know I will see my loved ones again, and I wish I could pass a bit of that peace onto you. Take care Kim; the God I know of loves you & yours, and always will. ((hugs))

Eryl Shields said...

I'm so sorry Kim.

It's approaching the 33rd anniversary of my father's death and the grief still comes flooding back at times.

Kim Ayres said...

Thank you all for your thoughts

Stella said...

Hugs to you Kim, yes it does get easier, never ever goes away but it's easier. Thinking of you.

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